In search of my soul

It’s my birthday and on the very first day itself I realise that being a girl child is not the very best option destined on me. I see my mother smiling (I instantly fall in love with this beautiful creation). I wonder why others are in grave mood! No celebration, no one is happy! I am still in conversation with my creator and the very first question I ask him is will this continue for my whole life?
I am growing up and now I am five years old, my mother has delivered a child (this time a boy). Everyone seems to be happy and ecstatic; even I am overjoyed as I will have someone to play with. There is celebration going on everywhere, I wonder where was all this when I was born! I question my creator but still he is silent.
We start growing up, we play together but my grandmother doesn’t like it. She wants my brother to play with guys and wants me to stay at home and help my mother in kitchen. I don’t argue and I don’t blame anyone because I know my creator won’t answer this time too.
Today I am getting married and I feel happy because I think all my wishes which I thought were not completed will be surely taken into consideration by my husband. But my destiny has some other plans for me. On the very first day I am told what I should do and what I should not. I am told that it is not my home!
It’s been around a year in my husband’s home (I still don’t call it my home) and now they want a boy, I question my creator again what if a girl is born? I hear a crying voice, I cry along and sitting in solace I wonder “where is my home”!